The Cost of Leadership
I think the biggest cost of leadership is the price paid for the unseen.
I am not talking of the long hours of study and preparation, that is a cost that comes with the position or the pressure that comes with the responsibility for the welfare of others, I am talking of disappointments and betrayals. The hours spent investing your life, time and talent into people and then to see them walk off without a thought, a care or even a thank you. Lives that would have been wrecked or destroy if you had not intervened.
That is the biggest price paid.
People who have been allowed room into a leader’s life, who eagerly drink from the hours of study and life experience, who take time that could have been spent with family and friends but were not.
I think of Jesus and Judas. Judas, I think had a revelation of who Christ was to the same degree that Peter did, a revelation and a perception that few men had ever experienced. Judas who walked, talk, labored and did miracles beside our Savior, his leader, all the time harboring an agenda. Hidding his true feelings and intentions. Judas had no problem benefiting from the power of God, but when the time came he turned and betrayed Him with a kiss.
John Macarthur writes:
Judas could have kissed Christ’s hand or the hem of His garment, but he feigned affection for Christ, not only to provide a sign, but also to attempt to deceive Christ and the disciples. “I shall kiss” (Gk. phil[ma]es[ma]o) is the future tense of phile[ma]o, which means “to show affection.”
Judas was feigning innocence, a weak attempt on his part to conceal his character and treachery. It would be bad enough to betray a friend, but inconceivably Judas sold out the very Son of God!
The delusion of thinking he could deceive Him added to his sin beyond description. Judas fulfills this thought in Proverbs 27:6: “The kisses of an enemy are deceitful.” Integral to an enemy’s deceit is an exaggeration of his friendship.
As leaders we should always remember that friendship and trust is only ever earned over time. I believe we should guard our heart, not to the point of cynicism, but for the sake of protecting the issues of our life. But then at the same time be at peace – because disappointment will happen. It happened to Christ, yet God used what was heart breaking and made it breath taking.
In all that happens, I still look upon those who seek to damage and damn their leaders with great compassion.
I am moved with the same sense that I am moved when I think of Judas. A life wasted, a life manipulated by self and Satan and as Christ said, it would have been better if he had never been born.
After 20 years of ministry I look back and can not think of one instance where someone betrayed the genuine love and fellowship of their leader when their life was not shattered upon the rocks of their own personal Potter’s Field.
What a waste. What a tragic and utter waste – for all concerned.